It’s been almost a year since I last posted – so what have I done with my time? Why have I let my blog sink into quicksand?
a) I’ve had a baby
b) sometimes I’m too lazy for my own good (is there such a thing as the right amount of laziness?)
My beautiful son was born on July 6th, 2010. He’s seven months old now and a living breathing part of my heart.
When I was in the early stages of pregnancy I used to daydream about what I would do with my maternity leave. I’d write books! I’d revise! I’d read all the time!
Pre-baby, I mostly napped. It was the middle of summer and my feet swelled into hot pink, piggy little logs that couldn’t fit properly into any of my shoes.
Post-baby, well. It’s amazing how much of a day you can lose to feeding, changing and holding a little baby. Perhaps it’s not amazing at all to anyone who has been there themselves, but it was all new to me. My son is a poor daytime sleeper and the days and weeks have slipped by. I’ve done some writing, but nothing like the crazy dreams I used to have. I don’t regret it particularly though. There’s nothing I could’ve done to magically free up more time. It was what it was and I’ve only got five weeks of maternity leave left.
I go back to work four days a week and will still be pretty busy on my days off. But I’m hopeful that as my son gets older and I get used to working again, I’ll be able to carve out some time to be creative. Let’s hope it’s not just a crazy dream this time, eh?